Well, yeah. Here lately, I've felt nothing but empty inside. I yearn for God but yet I find myself doing the same old routine and stuff. Me doing what I do, pulls me far from God. It hurts.... I don't really know what to do about it anymore. I try to change. I really do. This empty feeling just keeps holding me back.... I feel mega conviction all the time. What do I do with it?! I push it aside, like a dummy. It scares me. I don't know why. I try. I kind of just want to surrender all to God. Ya know, let go and let God. Easier said than done. I promise. I want to change. I need to change. This empty feeling that's inside of me.... I long to get rid of it. I just always hold myself back. I'm scared of getting hurt. God will never hurt me though. Satan really needs to back off. This is seriously weighing me down. It's messing with my anxiety and among other things it is messing with.
Then a song comes to mind that I need to live by. That I need to push myself to live by. It's called Come As You Are by: Pocketful of Rocks. "He's not mad at you. He's not disappointed. His grace is greater still. Than all of your wrong choices.... You can come as you are. With all your broken pieces. And all your shameful scars. The pain you hold in your heart. Bring it all to Jesus. You can come as you are." It means so much. I need to come to him. I need his rescue and forgiveness.
Dear God, Please help me out. I know that you're still there. Please don't let me forget it. I need you, Jesus, to come to my rescue. I can't go on any longer without you. I know that I already accepted you into my heart last May. I need a little bit of a reminder. I'm falling back. Please catch me under your wing. Don't let me leave. Stay with me, God.
I'm running to your arms........ I'm running to your arms......... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRBQtIEEkrU&feature=endscreen&NR=1
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