I Need You Jesus.

Dear God, "I need you Jesus, to come to my rescue." I DO need you Jesus. I need you, a lot. I'm not at a good place in my life. And, I'm ready for you to turn that around. Please.... I am DONE letting myself feel this way. Satan needs to back off right about now. This feeling.... This deadness.... Is bringing me down. I can't take it anymore. This habit that the feeling makes me do, is not good. I want more than anything to be done with it. Only You, God, can bring me out of this dark hole that it's brought me into. I have faith in you. I just know that you will bring me out of this. I believe it with all of my heart. It's just gotta happen in your own time though. All in your time, God........ Amen!!

Psalm 22:11 says, "Do not be far from me, for trouble is near and there is no one to help." This seems like something I should be crying out to God. He is there I don't even realize it half of the time. There truly is no one who can help me but God. And, this verse informs me of that. It was a real eye opener. For real, though. I need to not be so far from God because, truth is, it wouldn't be safe. I need to be staying close to him. My life would be even more of a disaster than it already is if I ventured away from God.

I mean, I say all of this and I say it from my heart.... But, I really wanna do more than to just say it. I want to live it. And, it is definitely easier said than done and I wish that that wasn't the case. I wish it was easy. It would be great if it was easy. One thing's for sure though.... I need to get my priorities straight and call on Jesus. That is that. He's here. My heart is his. I just.... can't give myself the extra push that I need. I know he's so close though. I can just feel it.