Drowning

If someone were to come up to me and ask me how I was doing, I would not know the answer.

I feel a mixture of different emotions.  

It's like a concoction of confusion. 

I feel happy sometimes. 

 I feel sad sometimes. 

 I feel angry sometimes. 

 I feel nothing sometimes.    

All of the things that I'm feeling are starting to take their toll on me. 

I am trying my hardest to be a great mom. 

I am trying my hardest to be a great daughter/grand daughter. 

 I am trying my hardest to be a great friend. 

Yet, I feel like trying my hardest just isn't good enough anymore. 

I feel as though I am a complete waste of space at this point. 

I am drowning in loneliness. 

I am drowning. 

Everything makes me anxious anymore.    

My anxiety is at a peak where it has never been. 

I am also depressed.  

Have you ever been depressed and filled with anxiety all at the same time? 

It is the most over whelming feeling in the entire world.     

I find myself not wanting to do anything except sleep. 

I can't sleep all the time though. 

I have two jobs that I have to go to in order to provide for my daughter and myself. 

I am drowning. 

I am drowning in a pool of rejection and hate.   

I don't want to live my life like this anymore.   

I am trying my best to stay faithful in church. 

I have done pretty well with that so far. 

I am trying my best to rediscover my first love. 

Running back into the arms of Jesus....  

All I ever do anymore is cry about everything. 

I am drowning in my own tears. 

I am drowning. 

Life isn't always going to be this painful. 

The wounds are just still fresh. 

As I drown in my pain, I pray that God would take it all away.... 

I am drowning.................    

I am running out of words to say.

It's becoming harder to realize how I'm really feeling.

I am drowning in a sea of sorrow.

I am drowning and feel like I'm never going to recover from this.

The sea of sorrow that's consuming me has the strongest of waves.

I am drowning.