Monday, July 6, 2015

20 Years Later, She Finally Chose Jesus

I literally cannot believe that I turn 20 years old in less than a month. It's so hard to believe... Time goes by so fast... 

(This is gonna be a short one, but very important to me.) 

I'm not really sure where to begin. It's been a crazy year of life for me. 
I began my college education and am on the path to becoming and elementary school teacher. So hard to believe.  

I have hurt people, and I have been hurt.

I have lived for God, and I have backslid all in a short amount of time. 

I went from being on fire for God to drinking fireball whiskey instead. 
I went from going to church to going to parties. 
I went from having thoughts about heaven to thoughts about ending my own life. 
I went from living with a wonderful family to living on my own. 
I went from feeling loved to feeling lonely. 
I went from loving God to doubting Him. 

I've done so much in such a small amount of time that I can barely even wrap my mind around it. 

By the grace of God, He got my attention within a few dreams that He gave me. It has helped me to realize where I need to get back to. I'm slowly starting my climb back up the mountain, and I'm slowly starting to trust in Him again. 

If I've learned one thing about life, it's that it is full of choices. Whether or not you make the right choice is all up to you.  Choosing to walk with God is one of the best decisions and toughest decisions you will ever make. So, it's up to you. Choose the right path, or choose the wrong path. As for me, I choose to start down the right path again. I want to get back to where I used to be. I want to make it to heaven someday. I'm done living for the world. I'm done juggling my choices and riding the fence. I. Choose. Jesus. 

“I’m feeling terrible—I couldn’t feel worse! Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember? When I told my story, you responded; train me well in your deep wisdom. Help me understand these things inside and out so I can ponder your miracle-wonders. My sad life’s dilapidated, a falling-down barn; build me up again by your Word. Barricade the road that goes Nowhere; grace me with your clear revelation. I choose the true road to Somewhere, I post your road signs at every curve and corner. I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me; GOD, don’t let me down! I’ll run the course you lay out for me if you’ll just show me how.”
Psalm 119:25-32 MSG"

2 comments:

  1. Hello Jewell. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you because of who you are in the Lord Jesus Christ. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India and love to get connected with the people of God around the world to be encouraged, strengthen and praying for one another. I have been in the Pastoral ministry foor last 36yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come with your friends to Mumbai to work with during your vacation time. I am sure you will have alife changing experience. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends. Wish you a very joyous Christmas season and a very bright, prosperous and Christ centered New year.

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  2. Hello Jewell. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you because of who you are in the Lord Jesus Christ. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India and love to get connected with the people of God around the world to be encouraged, strengthen and praying for one another. I have been in the Pastoral ministry foor last 36yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come with your friends to Mumbai to work with during your vacation time. I am sure you will have alife changing experience. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends. Wish you a very joyous Christmas season and a very bright, prosperous and Christ centered New year.

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