I Wish

I wish life was as simple as just snapping your fingers and all of your problems would just disappear.
I wish life was easy enough to just be happy all day for a whole day.
I wish life wasn't full of so many disappointments.
I wish life didn't throw so much crap at so many people all at once.

I wish fights didn't exist.
I wish arguing wasn't real.
I wish love could always be present.
I wish life just wasn't so complicated.

I wish that someday, I would stop only focusing on the negative aspects of things.
I wish that someday, I would stop fighting myself over every little thing.
I wish that someday, I would stop thinking that everything that goes wrong is my fault.
I wish that life would stop slowly going down the toilet for me... I want to get better, soon.

I wish I could find a way to not hate myself so much.
I wish I could find some way to break these chains that have such a tight grip on me.
I wish I could find a way to actually be real to myself and admit that I can't do this alone anymore.
I wish life could find some way to start being worth something.

I wish that I wasn't in such a dead place in my life, faith, and emotions right now.
I wish that I could be free from all of this fear in me.
I wish that I would raise my white flag and hit my knees and cry out to God for help.
I wish that life would just pause and let me collect my thoughts.

I wish my thoughts were positive.
I wish my thoughts were uplifting.
I wish my thoughts would just slow/calm way down.
I wish life would freeze and just be quiet for just a minute.

I wish that I could write a little prayer to put here like I usually do... I've got nothing...