It's Okay

A friend of mine told me the other day that I don't always have to be the strong one (which just confirmed it because my other friend said the same thing a couple days before). He told me that it's okay to finally break down... to cry. He said it's time for me to finally be real with myself about things. To actually let go and just let it all out. He made a reality real for me that things in my life aren't going to be the same, but they're going to change for the better. He said it's all going to be okay.

So, after all that he said sunk in, I finally broke. I stopped putting up a strong front and things got real. He held me while I cried, and while I processed my thoughts. I'll never forget it because no one has ever done something like that for me before. Ever showed me such care and compassion. So, thank you so much, David. I am so blessed to have you as my best friend/brother. You mean the world to me. I guess you could count this as part two of your chronicles. Haha.

So, other things I've gathered from this? There are a few. But, I can't get it out of my mind that I finally learned that I can't do this all on my own. I have to rely on the people who care about me, and most importantly, God. If I learn to start relying on God for everything, I will start slowly but surely having more hope. I will have purpose, and I will start being able to reach out to others and help them in ways that I have been helped.

So, this was step one for me in a complete life transformation. Starting small, taking baby steps, and making progress. Like I said, slowly but surely, and that is perfectly okay with me.

Dear God,
I just wanna thank you for using David to get through to me and for placing him in my life. I also just wanna pray that you would use his words through me, so that I can also help others in the way that he has helped me.
I just ask that you would use me in ways, God, that you have never used me before. Whether it be through my writing or just through my everyday life, I want it all to revolve around you.
Amen!