Reflection

Last night, I went to my church's prayer room and spent 45 minutes praying my heart out. I was having a conversation with God like I never have before. I poured out my heart to Him, and He told me things. Many things. I was crying, yet talking, yet having a screaming match with Him. It was so intense that I didn't, and still don't know how to handle everything that was laid on my heart.

One thing was that I need to not sweat the small stuff. He said to me that that's where I need to start in growing closer to Him. I sure was put to the test over this as soon as I got home. I tried to not let it get to me, but for once, it only kinda did. It's like God was saying, "See?! If you can't trust me with the small things, then you're not gonna trust me with your everything." It hit me like, wow. I need to start working on not sweating the small stuff.

Another thing God told me was that He missed me wanting to spend time with Him. I think that's one of the reasons that I felt His presence so powerfully with me. I felt such an over whelming feeling of peace that I didn't know what to do with it. Everything within me was so calm that I couldn't help but just sit there, bask in His presence, and cry. It was so very wonderful. He was telling me that if I were to regularly spend time with Him like that, then I would feel the peace within me more often.

So, as I reflect on those and the other things that God told me, I start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It will start to get better when I start to lean 100% on the Lord. I have the strength to make it through.

P.S. Short and simple... It is what it is. =P