Sunday, May 19, 2013

Anxiety Attack

So much madness.
So much chaos.
There's nothing but noise.
Sounds of life echoing among each other.
I lose my breath.
I catch it.
I think this.
I think that.
Shaking.
My nerves going haywire.
I silently panic, but keep it to myself.
No specific thing.
Just pure stress.
All of everything in my head.
All the words running together.
Edge of tears.
Driving me crazy.
Goes on for a little while longer.
Lingers even more.
Anxiety.
Haunts me.
It attacks like a cougar.
Hits you when you least expect it.
Never prepared.
Anxiety attack.
It's so controlling.
It makes even the slightest thing get on my nerves.
Trying to stay calm.
Trying to take deep breaths.
It pierces my lungs like a sword.
It hurts.
It's exhausting.
Makes me dizzy.
What's spinning?
The room or my head?
Why won't it stop?!
Why can't I control it?!
Can't focus.
Gotta hide it.
My mind is elsewhere.
No, it's everywhere.
Don't act nervous.
Trying not to panic.
It's almost over.
Keep pushing through it.
Keep breathing.
Finally.
It's over.
Feels like a heavy weight's been removed from my chest.
Like a brick's been removed from my head.
I can breathe again.
My world is calm again.

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