Patience and Silence

Patience

What is it?!

Silence.

Does that exist?! 

The world doesn't slow down.

It doesn't wait for you.

Do you have to slow down?!

Do you have to wait on the world?!

Sometimes, everything goes too fast and never stops.

You feel lost in the crowd.

You feel like you're screaming, but no one can hear you.

You're just itching for something.

You pray for patience.

You pray for silence.

But, you don't think God can hear you either.

You say to yourself, "He's got bigger and better things to do." 

But, that's not true.

You are a child of God.

You know you are.

But, your heart just isn't in it anymore.

You feel like it's too late.

All hope is lost.

God is crying for your soul.

He's reaching out His hand.

You don't hear Him.

You push Him away.

In walks Satan.

A smirk on his face.

He puts the idea in your head.

God is trying to talk you out of it.

But, you are deaf.

You pay Him no attention.

Satan....he caught your attention.

Satan....he puts the temptation in front of your face.

God....He's begging for your attention.

God....He's trying to grab you away from the temptation.

But, you are oblivious to His presence.

The blade....it sits there....taunting you.

You try to resist it.

But, Satan took on full control of you.

God fights him.

But, your closed heart chose Satan.

Stupid, choice.

The blade....you grab it....you hold it in place.

You close your eyes.

And, you cut.

Satan....he pushes your hand to go deeper.

And, deeper.

And, deeper.

He promises to give you silence.

But, God tries one more time to tell you that He will give you patience first and then the silence will come.

You let God in.

You drop the blade.

You grab your wrist, wincing in pain.

You cry out, "God! Please forgive me!"

And, He hears you.

Silence.

It's finally quiet in your soul.

Patience.

God gives it to you.

Patience that the battle will end soon.

More silence.

As tears flood from your eyes, you realize that even though you felt unheard and alone, God was with you.

He heard you.

You finally have patience.

You finally have silence.