I'm Yours

Dear God,

I need You.

I need You to soften my heart.

Please break me apart.

Make me whole again.

I have lost sight of You.   

I am slipping away.

To Satan, it’s just a game.

A game of tug-a-war.

And, I’m the rope.

But, God, it’s exhausting.

It’s tearing my life apart.

I’m trying to find You again.

But, there’s a big dark shadow in the way.

It’s sin.

God, my sin is taking control of me.

I’m letting it.

It’s just so hard to let go.

God, I’m trying to hold on to Your hands.

But, I’m losing my grip.

God, You are greather than this battle.

I am a conquerer with You.

Through all of this.

Through all of everything.

I find myself almost facing almos the opposite direction.

Facing the dark side.

Honestly, God, I know You gave me free will.

And, I want to pick You.

So, why can’t I?!

Is it really my sin that’s holding me back?!

Or, am I, myself, holding myself back?!  

Is it just my stupid human mind?!

God, help me to grasp onto You.

I’m crying out from my soul. I’m crawling back to lay everything down at the cross.

I love You, God.

I know You.

I believe in You.

I fear You.

I worship You.

I give You glory.

I give You praise.

I’m running back into Your arms.

I’m giving it all to go Your way.

God, I just need You.

I just miss You.

I see Your face.

It’s beautiful.

I don’t ever wanna turn away.

Lord, I thank You.

I thank You for grace and forgiveness.

I am Yours.



Patience and Silence

Patience

What is it?!

Silence.

Does that exist?! 

The world doesn't slow down.

It doesn't wait for you.

Do you have to slow down?!

Do you have to wait on the world?!

Sometimes, everything goes too fast and never stops.

You feel lost in the crowd.

You feel like you're screaming, but no one can hear you.

You're just itching for something.

You pray for patience.

You pray for silence.

But, you don't think God can hear you either.

You say to yourself, "He's got bigger and better things to do." 

But, that's not true.

You are a child of God.

You know you are.

But, your heart just isn't in it anymore.

You feel like it's too late.

All hope is lost.

God is crying for your soul.

He's reaching out His hand.

You don't hear Him.

You push Him away.

In walks Satan.

A smirk on his face.

He puts the idea in your head.

God is trying to talk you out of it.

But, you are deaf.

You pay Him no attention.

Satan....he caught your attention.

Satan....he puts the temptation in front of your face.

God....He's begging for your attention.

God....He's trying to grab you away from the temptation.

But, you are oblivious to His presence.

The blade....it sits there....taunting you.

You try to resist it.

But, Satan took on full control of you.

God fights him.

But, your closed heart chose Satan.

Stupid, choice.

The blade....you grab it....you hold it in place.

You close your eyes.

And, you cut.

Satan....he pushes your hand to go deeper.

And, deeper.

And, deeper.

He promises to give you silence.

But, God tries one more time to tell you that He will give you patience first and then the silence will come.

You let God in.

You drop the blade.

You grab your wrist, wincing in pain.

You cry out, "God! Please forgive me!"

And, He hears you.

Silence.

It's finally quiet in your soul.

Patience.

God gives it to you.

Patience that the battle will end soon.

More silence.

As tears flood from your eyes, you realize that even though you felt unheard and alone, God was with you.

He heard you.

You finally have patience.

You finally have silence.

   

The Dance

“Looking back.

On the memories of.

The dance we shared.

Beneath the stars above.

For a moment.

All the world was right.

How could I have known?!

That you’d ever say goodbye.

And I’m, I’m glad I didn’t know.

The way it all would end.

The way it all would go.

Our lives, are better left to chance .

I could’ve missed the pain.

But, I’d have had to miss the dance.”    

The name of that song is The Dance by: Garth Brooks.

If you haven’t heard that song, you should look it up.

It’s one of the songs that was played at my great-grandpa’s viewing two years ago.

I sat there at the viewing listening to the song, but I didn’t listen to the meaning of the words.

I wasn’t a Christian then.

Now, at my aunt’s viewing last week, I decided to listen to the song, but not just the song.

To the words.

It finally occurred to me that life is a dance.

A dance that we all move and groove to.

The dance that all one day will come to an end for all of us.

Which brings me to ask you this question.

Where will you go when your dance is finished?!

The two options are as simple as this.

Heaven.

Or hell.

You may not think that the choice is yours.

But, it is.

It is totally, 100%, up to you.

If you really think about it, it’s an easy choice, just not an easy journey.

I chose to go to Heaven.

By giving my life to God, that will be my reward in the future.

But, sadly, there are some people who choose hell.

I don’t understand that though.

I mean, who would want to spend eternity away from God while burning in a lake of fire?!

Just doesn’t make sense to me.

Whereas, the wise people who choose Jesus.

We will spend eternity having a hallelujah party while praising God 24/7.

Yeah.

I’m going to stick with the choice that I made.

Now, what choice will YOU make?!

Or, what choice have you already made?!

Think wisely.

And, think about how you wish to spend the rest of your eternity.

Hmmm…. Eternity.

That’s a long time.

Just think on that.

And, if you don’t think wisely….

You’ll be spending a lot of time ‘sweating’ the decision that you made.