Closure

I sense that I am slowly letting go... that I’m growing less in love with him every single day. 

I think that’s the most difficult thing about losing someone you’ve loved... the way you feel, never really dies all at once. 

All you can do is wait and watch it fade away one day at a time. 

You will have days where you feel better. 

You will have days where all you want to do is cry. 

Both are okay. 

There’s no magical cure. 

You just need to close your eyes, and trust that the waves will pass and soon you’ll be able to breathe again. 

I know it’s not easy. 

I know it hurts. 

You’re sitting there overthinking, a million and one questions are running through your head. 

Unable to sleep, creating different scenarios in your mind, while making a mental list of regrets... 

But, you can’t keep blaming yourself for someone else’s inability to provide the type of love you deserve. 

Tonight is just like any other night. 

It’s difficult, but you’ll do what you’ve always done. 

You’ll get over it. 

You’ll get through it. 

You’ll be fine. 

You’ll get closure. 

But, my closure didn’t come from him... 

My closure came from knowing deep in the middle of my heart that I did everything I could... 

That I went above and beyond for that man. 

I more than compromised. 

I became a whole entire new person just to accommodate him. 

AND IT STILL WASN’T ENOUGH. 

My closure didn’t come from him, no. 

My closure came from realizing that everyone isn’t for everyone. 

Him and I just weren’t for each other.