Like when you're in a dream and you're screaming, but you can't make any noise.
My body thinks something is gravely wrong, but my brain doesn't have a clue what to do about it... So it starts racing to the worst possible conclusions.
Within an instant, it's halfway between feeling like you'll faint and feeling like yll die.
Fighting for breath... Feeling like the floor's unstable... Trapped in your own head while floating somewhere outside, looking back at yourself, wondering what you're doing.
A huge fist grabs ahold of my insides... My heart goes into overdrive... And I go through the motions on autopilot.
It's not being able to sleep because you said something wrong two years ago and can't stop thinking about it.
Feeling like you're about to cry when someone points out that you're doing something wrong.
Anxiety is like a shadow that follows you even when it's dark. It latches itself onto you and doesn't ever let go. It makes you jump to conclusions all the time that something is going to go wrong. It makes you take a small situation, and turn it into something huge. It takes your breath away.
I can't exactly pin point how long I've been dealing with anxiety, but I can tell you this: I am SICK of it. I want it gone. I'm so tired of fighting the same exact battle everyday. I'm sick of waking up everyday and wondering if I can get through the day without having a panic attack.
I hate that I constantly feel like I'm about to fall off of a cliff. I hate that my brain is constantly going and going and going.
I always feel like I bother people. But, in all honesty, I just wanna talk to them so I don't feel alone. If I feel alone, it triggers a panic attack. If I feel too crowded, it triggers a panic attack.
I am trapped.
I am trapped inside of this bubble and it feels like there's no way out.
I am stuck in this pit of constant fear that I'm gonna do something wrong.
I am trapped...
