It's like some sort of virus that's just taking over.
It has my brain spinning out of control.
It feels like a spiral staircase going downhill.
Confusion.
Nothing seems to be making sense anymore.
When things start falling into place, something happens inside of me that makes things start to go wrong.
Everything happens all at once.
That's how it happens when I let my brain get in the way.
I overthink everything way too much.
I'm scared.
I don't know what's going on inside of me.
There is just so much going on.
Yet, I don't know exactly WHAT is going on.
There's too much.
I don't understand.
I pray.
I beg God for help.
I get impatient.
I keep having to tell myself, "God's timing. Not yours."
I'm tired of waiting....
I feel like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions.
Up and down.... Up and down....
A spiral....
A steep hill leading up to a steep drop....
A roller coaster that feels like it's about to hit a crash landing.
I'm trying my best to stay positive.
I'm putting on my happy face so no one knows I'm hurting inside.
I always have to be the strong one.
Always.
I don't want people to see the me that is in pain.
Oh, there's so much more to tell.
But, this is just a peek.
A very small peek.
A peek inside of my brain.
A very confused brain.
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