There is nothing happening.
No light.
No noise.
No distractions.
No reason for me to still be awake.
The room is so peaceful.
So chill.
Yet, my brain doesn't want to shut down.
It has no off switch.
It's more active than it even needs to be.
Even in a room full of nothing, it's searching for something.
All of my thoughts are dancing around in my head, making all sorts of noise.
Every word that pops into my brain starts to echo off of one another, creating a loud roar that won't come to an end.
My head starts to literally ache.
Then, it begins to spin.
I close my eyes and try to find an off switch, but I can't find it anywhere.
There's so much clutter in there.
So much nonsense that doesn't even matter.
It's such a mess that I can't even pin point the problem.
Once it starts, there's absolutely no stopping it.
It's like the devil has made my brain his playground.
There's a mixture of so many different things.
It's as frustrating as trying to listen to 20 different songs at the same time.
It's not fair.
I just want my brain to shut up.
I want to be able to go to sleep peacefully and not wake up a zillion times throughout the night.
It feels like Wrestle Mania is happening in the depths of my head.
It's causing so much pain.
Restlessness.
Worry.
Anxiety.
Torment.
Exhaustion.
I've gotten so used to it.
I've given it control over me.
Instead of praying it off of me I let it consume me and rule me.
This constant buzzing and ringing keeping me up at night has got to go.
I can't take it anymore.
I am DONE WITH IT!!!!
I rebuke this devil out of my life in Jesus' Name.
I'm not going to let this control me for one more second.
I'm gonna have the victory.
The enemy is not going to win this round.
* I wrote this last night, and I prayed and prayed and prayed. I am very happy to say that I had an amazing full night of sleep without interruptions. :) God is so good.
