Being surrounded by nothing but absolute darkness. The only things you can hear are your thoughts bouncing off the walls, and your soft, quiet sobs in the background. It feels cold, like ice. It feels like the pressure is building up, about to explode. Your head feels fuzzy, and you just feel useless. And stuck.
You're stuck in a pit. Not a physical, actual out like Joseph. A pit that is spiritual... Emotional... Mental. It's so real. It's so isolated and alone. You need help, but it's almost as if no one can hear your screams.
Are you even screaming, though?! It's so quiet. You can't catch a breath between cries. So, it's not possible that you're actually screaming, is it?! What's going on?! How did I end up so deep into this pit?! What's wrong with me?! Why can't anyone hear my cry for help?!
What about You, God?! Where have You been through all of this?! I need You more than I need anyone else!! Where. Are. You?!
God, please help me. Come back into my life again, and be my strength. Without You, I'm never going to make it through this. There's so much that is happening, and it's so hard to cry out to You. More than anything, God, I want to run at full speed back into Your arms. I love You. I need You. I miss You. Heal me. Help me. Please, God... Please.
