Keeping My Cool

Somewhere in the Bible it mentions “in your anger, do not sin.”

That’s really hard.

Like, you wanna say stuff to defend yourself…

…But you don’t because you know you will only be adding gasoline to the fire.

I’m shaking with frustration…

…I am dying to say something back.

It’s just not worth it though.

It’s hard to not ‘sin in my anger.’

By sin, I mean say things that aren't Christ-like.

*breathe in*

*breathe out*  

Everything’s gonna be okay.

I will be okay.

The situation will subside.

I hope so anyways.

I can only stay calm and have strength.

I may feel like blowing my top right now, but I’m not going to.

This is only a test of faith and friendship.

Yes, it’s really starting to get old.

Yes, I have an argument for the situation.

But, I’m keeping to myself.

And, I’m gonna let it pass.

Whatever happens will happen.

I will keep my cool.

I will not blow up.

This is not a big deal, really.

Every little thing, is gonna be alright. 

Reality Check

I used to always complain about all of the so-called ‘Christians’ that were only ‘Christians’ when it was convenient for them.

I would always complain about how they were hypocrites and made other true Christians look bad.

I complained about how I wish that they would make a choice between what lifestyle they want.  

Well, sad reality hit me.

I am one of those people now.

I am a hypocrite.

I am a so-called “convenient-Christian.”

I saw one tweet tonight that my youth pastor posted.

I knew it was about me the second that I read it.

Conviction hit me like a ton of bricks.

So, the question I need to ask myself is as simple as this: What choice am I going to make?

I wish it was an easy answer, but honestly, I have got to sit and think and pray.

I need to make up my mind because I can’t be living a double life anymore.

It needs to be one life, and I sure do hope that I make the right choice.

Reality hurts.

But, this reality check…

…Is what I needed.